Colour-blind and way out of line

I can’t get no fucking oxygen today. Hot air all around me, driving me insane. I enroll at college tomorrow, I’m praying this course works out and that I can succeed on it. It was strange to sit down two months ago and be able to pick whatever I wanted to do without any outside interference, a couple of years ago I would have had Ben rattling on in my ear about what he thinks we should do. I was tempted to restart our friendship but now I’m glad I didn’t, he was too controlling and I didn’t feel like an independent