Same backsides again

It could be a make or break day next Sunday. Since Christmas we have been inundated with extroverts joining work. 3 in particular I have had no dialog with. I wouldn’t go as far to say there is tension between us but there is definitely some form of gap there. I like to believe in the openness of anyone can get along with anyone. However in real life this is not always possible. If I had to write down attributes of a personality that I don’t mix with, these 3 extroverts would match the attributes perfectly. Next week is a birthday piss up for one of them. He actually invited me which was…umm…surprising. So next Sunday is a big piss up. If all goes well, hopefully the walls of discontent will be smashed to the ground. If it all goes down the shitter, then I am left in a tricky situation. These 3 extroverts will be on my team every night until I quit or they do. So fingers crossed it goes well next week.
The feelings of moving away have died down a bit. I knew they would. I’m sad about it because my attention is being forced elsewhere. Deadlines for college etc just filling up my head. I’m unsure of the next step to take. There is a general structure i.e Working and college again next year. But that doesn’t feel enough….how can it?
I was praying Tina would invite me to stay with her but I haven’t heard from her since.
I’m 20 next month and things aren’t that enjoyable.