Sober realisation
Yea I should have known…I see that now. Mum had to tell that straight to me.
Why I got on so well with Tina? The family member I thought destined to rescue me? We were both pissed. That’s all. No closeness. No bond. Just pissed. That’s all. That’s all it ever is.
I remember us not speaking 2 words when we were sober the next day. I watched Tina and her brother laugh and joke and talk…not pissed.
At work, Liam and Sonya…laugh, laugh, laugh….chat, chat, chat.
I’m just strolling through life watching everyone else “connect”. I tried to be chatty, tried to be witty….tried, tried & tried. I am destined to wander the planet alone like Bruce Banner. I watched as Liam and Sonya went off for their break together. I decided to go outside and look at a field for 10 minutes. It’s a joke really. I can’t even blame myself anymore. I’m not sure what to think or what to do. I feel stranded and alone.
Why I got on so well with Tina? The family member I thought destined to rescue me? We were both pissed. That’s all. No closeness. No bond. Just pissed. That’s all. That’s all it ever is.
I remember us not speaking 2 words when we were sober the next day. I watched Tina and her brother laugh and joke and talk…not pissed.
At work, Liam and Sonya…laugh, laugh, laugh….chat, chat, chat.
I’m just strolling through life watching everyone else “connect”. I tried to be chatty, tried to be witty….tried, tried & tried. I am destined to wander the planet alone like Bruce Banner. I watched as Liam and Sonya went off for their break together. I decided to go outside and look at a field for 10 minutes. It’s a joke really. I can’t even blame myself anymore. I’m not sure what to think or what to do. I feel stranded and alone.
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