Aches and pains
We turned up for football last night and only 6 of us were there. We could of played 3 v 3 but a couple of the lads didn’t want to bother. Great.
I decided to go to the pub with 2 of them and shoot a couple games of pool. It was no substitute, I was brimming with energy and I had no where to waste it.
So that was last night. Great.
Yey the London 2012 bid was won! Hopefully the attention on sport in this country will pick up at grass roots level.
2012, long time away isn’t it?
I’ll be 27!
Getting older opens so many doors for a person ,as it should do, but it also presents its fair share of new stresses.
You can practically go anywhere you want without having to answer to anyone. The thing I’ve found the most complicated aspect of growing up to be is relationships with people. It was great when we were little and all you had to say was “Wanna be my friend?” They wouldn’t always say yes, but there was a good chance. Now there are all different types of clicks and niches. Certain people can’t be seen to hang around with certain other people etc.
Bet, our new supervisor, knows Nina quite well and she said today that she got the impression, after talking with Nina, that if it weren’t for her boyfriend…we would already be together.
“Why what did she say?” I enquired.
“I’ve already said too much...haha” She replied.
I already knew we could have been. Should have been. Would have been. But ultimately…are not.
I look back and wonder If I’d have only done certain things differently, but I know that deep down I always had the best intentions in whatever course of action I took. And for that, I rid myself of guilt. I look at the situation and wonder how other influences steered us in separate directions. The fact that she had her exams at the critical time and took a few weeks off work. That kind of thing ruins momentum. The fact that when she came back recently she said she might be breaking up with her boyfriend and while that did not sound too definite, on another day maybe she would have taken that final jump?
I worry about these certain occurrences, because they sound a lot like the occurrences that I thought prevented me from getting to know Sonya better. I mean is it always going to be this way? Any chance of deep personal relationships with a female are to be thwarted by timely occurrences?
Yes it does worry me when I think about it.
A few months ago I had started reading this thread: http://www.moviecodec.com/topics/2420p84.html
I was feeling very lonely and felt slightly better when knowing there were hundreds of people who mirrored my feelings. It is quite scary to see that it has built up to 84 pages. 84 pages of people who are feeling so bad that they actually submitted to an anonymous website in some hope of expression of these dark feelings.
What is hard for these people, and myself at times, is that essentially we are good people and have been blessed to live in a society that provides for our needs so therefore we feel guilt on top of everything else.
Ah well that’s life.
"That's life, that's what all the people say.
You're riding high in April,
Shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune,
When I'm back on top, back on top in June.
I said that's life, and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks,
Stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down,
'Cause this fine ol' world it keeps spinning around
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king.
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself, flat on my face,
I pick myself up and get back in the race.
That's life
I tell ya, I can't deny it,
I thought of quitting baby,
But my heart just ain't gonna buy it.
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try,
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd flyThat's life
That's life and I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cutting out
But my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothing shakin' come this here july
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball and die
My, My"
I decided to go to the pub with 2 of them and shoot a couple games of pool. It was no substitute, I was brimming with energy and I had no where to waste it.
So that was last night. Great.
Yey the London 2012 bid was won! Hopefully the attention on sport in this country will pick up at grass roots level.
2012, long time away isn’t it?
I’ll be 27!
Getting older opens so many doors for a person ,as it should do, but it also presents its fair share of new stresses.
You can practically go anywhere you want without having to answer to anyone. The thing I’ve found the most complicated aspect of growing up to be is relationships with people. It was great when we were little and all you had to say was “Wanna be my friend?” They wouldn’t always say yes, but there was a good chance. Now there are all different types of clicks and niches. Certain people can’t be seen to hang around with certain other people etc.
Bet, our new supervisor, knows Nina quite well and she said today that she got the impression, after talking with Nina, that if it weren’t for her boyfriend…we would already be together.
“Why what did she say?” I enquired.
“I’ve already said too much...haha” She replied.
I already knew we could have been. Should have been. Would have been. But ultimately…are not.
I look back and wonder If I’d have only done certain things differently, but I know that deep down I always had the best intentions in whatever course of action I took. And for that, I rid myself of guilt. I look at the situation and wonder how other influences steered us in separate directions. The fact that she had her exams at the critical time and took a few weeks off work. That kind of thing ruins momentum. The fact that when she came back recently she said she might be breaking up with her boyfriend and while that did not sound too definite, on another day maybe she would have taken that final jump?
I worry about these certain occurrences, because they sound a lot like the occurrences that I thought prevented me from getting to know Sonya better. I mean is it always going to be this way? Any chance of deep personal relationships with a female are to be thwarted by timely occurrences?
Yes it does worry me when I think about it.
A few months ago I had started reading this thread: http://www.moviecodec.com/topics/2420p84.html
I was feeling very lonely and felt slightly better when knowing there were hundreds of people who mirrored my feelings. It is quite scary to see that it has built up to 84 pages. 84 pages of people who are feeling so bad that they actually submitted to an anonymous website in some hope of expression of these dark feelings.
What is hard for these people, and myself at times, is that essentially we are good people and have been blessed to live in a society that provides for our needs so therefore we feel guilt on top of everything else.
Ah well that’s life.
"That's life, that's what all the people say.
You're riding high in April,
Shot down in May
But I know I'm gonna change that tune,
When I'm back on top, back on top in June.
I said that's life, and as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks,
Stompin' on a dream
But I don't let it, let it get me down,
'Cause this fine ol' world it keeps spinning around
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king.
I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself, flat on my face,
I pick myself up and get back in the race.
That's life
I tell ya, I can't deny it,
I thought of quitting baby,
But my heart just ain't gonna buy it.
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try,
I'd jump right on a big bird and then I'd flyThat's life
That's life and I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cutting out
But my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothing shakin' come this here july
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball and die
My, My"
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