Like an arm rest

Yvonne starts her training course tomorrow so she’ll be away for a couple of weeks. I think she, more than anyone else, has helped me cope these last few weeks. Neither of us have August off so we will be battling through that month side by side.
We share a lot of the same philosophies on subjects such as music, humour and relationships and It’s always interesting to sit next to her. I’ve felt agitated all day today and it led to me making a huge mistake at work which could cost me my job. I made a terrible mistake but Yvonne backed me up straight away even though deep down she knows what I’m accused of…I did.
Maybe I should pay the price for it?
In my defence it was not intentional.
But I fucked up because my mind was just not with it. I think if I get fired I’ll just spiral way down.