Shrinking fear

It’s always nice to learn something about yourself or at least begin to understand a certain aspect of your nature.
Yesterday I got a taste of the university life. All the standard decorations were present i.e Collected Beer bottles, crazy posters and clothes hanging out everywhere.
Nina’s flatmates started to filter out and we all got smashed and went to Manchester.
It was fine…it was perfectly enjoyable and when we got to Nina’s house again I slept on some mat in a spare room.
The whole time though I just had this instinctive response of “This just isn’t me”
And I knew why and it was kind of reassuring.
Nina and her B/F didn’t seem to have much charisma as a couple. I could see Pete often try and show Nina affection but she would be hesitant to even touch the guy. Ya know it puzzles me to no end that when me and Nina are alone nowadays we don’t really talk. There’s lots of awkward silences and forced conversation but she is always inviting me out time after time. I just wish I could crack open her head and find out what she is really thinking.
But whatever.
Yea it was really good last night and I enjoyed the bars and clubs immensely.