From the rocks to rock solid

I was wrong to think I could handle it and even though it makes me sick to my stomach to admit it I just can’t deny it any longer.
Tonight I’ll be setting off with Nina and her boyfriend to go into town and the thought of seeing those two together just gets to me.
It will be the third time in short succession that we’ve met up and while I get on with him…and I just don’t feel comfortable when they are together in my presence.
It was OK before when there relationship was on the rocks because I tried to show that I was a Ok with it.
But now their relationship is solid as a rock out of nowhere. My guess is that she was tempted to break up with him but after nearly doing so she realised how much she cared for this guy and how much she would be throwing away.
She had just told me what a great time she’d had last night with him and it was not as though she was bragging, she was just genuinely enthusiastic. I went to the downstairs toilet at work and stared at the mirror just thinking “What the hell am I doing?”
It’s felt like a shit day though…it certainly contains the symptoms of a shit day. The first call I had was an absolute nightmare and it was downhill from there.
I couldn’t wait to get home and have a sleep and listen to some music.