You talkin’ to me?….Well I’m the only one here

I start work at 9:00 AM tomorrow morning, so my Friday night feels very limited. I’m very worried about my shift tomorrow, for some reason Sam and Sally were taking the mick out of me behind my back….that hurts. I’ve been reading up on why I blush so much when talking to more than one person at once, the closet thing I could find was something called social anxiety and the cure is counselling, if this problem carries on I will definitely consider going, but for now I’m going to try and work through it myself.

I couldn’t have just been a normal person, lol.

I’m actually not laughing out loud, but it makes me even more sad if I don’t try to bring some light to the dark.
I really yearn for the days of my childhood, when nothing was complicated and relationships were easier to build, where my confidence was sky high 24/7, when there were no financial concerns or a career to worry about. But now, bah, forget about it….everything seems like a big mess, I just hate it when people pile on the stress.
But I try not to look at hating everything, I have to try to be more balanced and look at the overall picture of life, I just can’t wait until my teen years are over, it will be like a metaphoric weight off my shoulders. Why does life become so much harder? Our minds expand but maybe this just complicates everything, if growing old does anything, it makes you cynical until one day we are innocent no more and the world stops looking like a cloud. Sometimes I just want to fly away to a warm paradise and leave this industrial world behind, I’m tired of grey mornings and wet summers, and I’m tired of been unhappy.
Oh well, whatever, never mind