Here we are now, entertain us
What memories will occupy my head in another 20 years? I can remember so many highs and lows from yester-years, memories I wouldn’t give up for anything. I remember what I saw and felt about staring school. I cried when my mum left me, and for some reason the teachers had to take pictures of everyone. I saw mine a few years later and I looked really upset. I remember being scared, scared of the other kids, deep down I was worried they would reject me, but as time progressed and things changed, that school became an institution in my life.
I’m frightened of looking back in another 20 years and not having the same magnitude of memories. The years seem to pass as if merely weeks, with only a few noticeable pit stops i.e Birthdays and Christmas. I’m very conscious of time and I don’t feel that bad about it when it comes to things such as a career, money or possessions, these you build up over a life time. Time in relationships is more concerning, we seem to be getting colder as a society. I know so many people in broken relationships and people who have chosen to live alone for the rest of their lives. What has brought people to this? I see a boyfriend and girlfriend barely talk to each other, there is no warmth between them, yet they still masquerade in a relationship. I would never want that…maybe a life of solitude awaits? I’m finding it harder to see inspiration in relationships when I look around and everyone seems unhappy, it seems the best part of a relationship is just before they get together, when everything is new and the anticipation of being with this person exceeds that of the reality.
I don’t think I’ve seen enough of the world myself to pass judgment. I’m sure there are lots of happy relationships out there, and maybe deep down I’m just disappointed because of my own situation.
“You haven’t lived until you’ve loved”
Well I’m waiting! There seems to be the type of men who just want sex and a type of men that don’t mind all the other side e.g talking, maybe I’ve got to try and become less demanding…maybe I should just get drunk and try and get laid, with no other thought in my head. Ah I dunno, just wait and see…
I’m frightened of looking back in another 20 years and not having the same magnitude of memories. The years seem to pass as if merely weeks, with only a few noticeable pit stops i.e Birthdays and Christmas. I’m very conscious of time and I don’t feel that bad about it when it comes to things such as a career, money or possessions, these you build up over a life time. Time in relationships is more concerning, we seem to be getting colder as a society. I know so many people in broken relationships and people who have chosen to live alone for the rest of their lives. What has brought people to this? I see a boyfriend and girlfriend barely talk to each other, there is no warmth between them, yet they still masquerade in a relationship. I would never want that…maybe a life of solitude awaits? I’m finding it harder to see inspiration in relationships when I look around and everyone seems unhappy, it seems the best part of a relationship is just before they get together, when everything is new and the anticipation of being with this person exceeds that of the reality.
I don’t think I’ve seen enough of the world myself to pass judgment. I’m sure there are lots of happy relationships out there, and maybe deep down I’m just disappointed because of my own situation.
“You haven’t lived until you’ve loved”
Well I’m waiting! There seems to be the type of men who just want sex and a type of men that don’t mind all the other side e.g talking, maybe I’ve got to try and become less demanding…maybe I should just get drunk and try and get laid, with no other thought in my head. Ah I dunno, just wait and see…
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