The way i am
Ya know what the worst thing about being a total lonely loser is?
Being too cowardly to end it.
I have nothing worth hanging about for really. My cousin is pretty much the same. He’s 30 and was showing me his new !pod…that’s his Christmas. That is all. A piece of technology. Absolutely meaningless.
I’ve got a load of shitting English work to do…what’s the point doing it though? Just so I can get some kind of shallow reward for myself. I hate that. I got a new TV but it didn’t make me happy or fill any void in my life. It just reminded me that while the majority of the population are out there enjoying relationship with real people, I’ll be stuck in my room watching TV.
But that’s my lot I guess. That’s what I have to be thankful to god for. Thanks God. In the real world I’m not allowed to moan or be upset about my situation because 1. I don’t have any real friends who will listen and 2. How can someone living in England be upset with a situation when there are starving kids in Africa?
I deserve more from life. I may be quiet, shy, incapable of socialising and embarrassed at any attention in a group, but does that make it so I will have nothing or no-one for the rest of my life? I didn’t ask to be this way did I? But I’m getting punished for it. I feel angry, I feel like I’ve spent lots of money on something and I can’t return it. I’m getting ripped off in life, some kind of force or entity doesn’t want me to be happy…and shall I tell you the last time I actually felt happy? ….8 years ago.
What a shitty world, predictable in its screwing over of me.
YEY its new years eve on Friday…..guess where I’ll be? In front of my computer because no-one asks me anywhere because I’m the fucking bad guy.
But the world needs people like me so you can feel happy….happy that you aren’t me. So when you feel down and dejected just remember that at the very least….you are not Alex fucking Lee, the lamest person ever to grace planet earth.
I’m half expecting aliens to abduct me and take me back to my correct planet
Being too cowardly to end it.
I have nothing worth hanging about for really. My cousin is pretty much the same. He’s 30 and was showing me his new !pod…that’s his Christmas. That is all. A piece of technology. Absolutely meaningless.
I’ve got a load of shitting English work to do…what’s the point doing it though? Just so I can get some kind of shallow reward for myself. I hate that. I got a new TV but it didn’t make me happy or fill any void in my life. It just reminded me that while the majority of the population are out there enjoying relationship with real people, I’ll be stuck in my room watching TV.
But that’s my lot I guess. That’s what I have to be thankful to god for. Thanks God. In the real world I’m not allowed to moan or be upset about my situation because 1. I don’t have any real friends who will listen and 2. How can someone living in England be upset with a situation when there are starving kids in Africa?
I deserve more from life. I may be quiet, shy, incapable of socialising and embarrassed at any attention in a group, but does that make it so I will have nothing or no-one for the rest of my life? I didn’t ask to be this way did I? But I’m getting punished for it. I feel angry, I feel like I’ve spent lots of money on something and I can’t return it. I’m getting ripped off in life, some kind of force or entity doesn’t want me to be happy…and shall I tell you the last time I actually felt happy? ….8 years ago.
What a shitty world, predictable in its screwing over of me.
YEY its new years eve on Friday…..guess where I’ll be? In front of my computer because no-one asks me anywhere because I’m the fucking bad guy.
But the world needs people like me so you can feel happy….happy that you aren’t me. So when you feel down and dejected just remember that at the very least….you are not Alex fucking Lee, the lamest person ever to grace planet earth.
I’m half expecting aliens to abduct me and take me back to my correct planet
posted by A.Lee at 7:41 AM
2 Comments:
maybe we are from that same planet 8-o x
Calm down mate, calm down...
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