Foreign land
I caught a film last night with Mark. It was actually pretty funny.
Mark moved up here last year and lives in a flat somewhere by himself. As the evening was about to begin, darkness was slowly creeping up and the skyline of the city was rather beautiful. It was amber and the fields that stretch for miles back seemed almost intoxicating.
The place was packed, not just the cinema but the pizza bars, the nightclub…everywhere was packed full of people looking for a good time. I saw people on dates, groups of friends and people on their own. Yet there seemed to be something that made me and Mark stand out. Asif we were foreigners checking out the local hot spots. It was very much just get in, watch a film and get out kind of situation.
Earlier in the day I had been concerned about my Saturday night…I really didn’t want to be indoors. Initially at work I had sat down on a seat a few places away from Nina…not intentionally…but it was just convenient. Then these nob heads started to fill out the area so I decided to move and sit next to Mark.
Before that however I went to get a glass of water and I said Hi to Nina, I could of completely ignored her like I was feeling or I could have been completely falling all over her, which is how I was feeling too. But I just rationalised in my head and came to the conclusion that whatever it was we had was completely dead…so why act like a prick?
So I said Hi and moved away promptly. By the way she didn’t respond.
And that was it. I talked to Mark for most of the morning and suggested we catch a film…lets save both our embarrassing Saturday nights.
I’m fearful of the future to be honest. I have college and a job but that’s all professional. I’m fearful of waking up this summer and there been nobody there. I’m fearful of turning 20 next week with no-one but parents to celebrate it with. At least being 20 marks a numerical end to my teen years….closure.
Who knows what is in store for me within the next decade?
It’s just a damn shame things didn’t work out with Nina. I’m real gutted about it and its hard reverting back to having no-one on the horizon again.
Mark moved up here last year and lives in a flat somewhere by himself. As the evening was about to begin, darkness was slowly creeping up and the skyline of the city was rather beautiful. It was amber and the fields that stretch for miles back seemed almost intoxicating.
The place was packed, not just the cinema but the pizza bars, the nightclub…everywhere was packed full of people looking for a good time. I saw people on dates, groups of friends and people on their own. Yet there seemed to be something that made me and Mark stand out. Asif we were foreigners checking out the local hot spots. It was very much just get in, watch a film and get out kind of situation.
Earlier in the day I had been concerned about my Saturday night…I really didn’t want to be indoors. Initially at work I had sat down on a seat a few places away from Nina…not intentionally…but it was just convenient. Then these nob heads started to fill out the area so I decided to move and sit next to Mark.
Before that however I went to get a glass of water and I said Hi to Nina, I could of completely ignored her like I was feeling or I could have been completely falling all over her, which is how I was feeling too. But I just rationalised in my head and came to the conclusion that whatever it was we had was completely dead…so why act like a prick?
So I said Hi and moved away promptly. By the way she didn’t respond.
And that was it. I talked to Mark for most of the morning and suggested we catch a film…lets save both our embarrassing Saturday nights.
I’m fearful of the future to be honest. I have college and a job but that’s all professional. I’m fearful of waking up this summer and there been nobody there. I’m fearful of turning 20 next week with no-one but parents to celebrate it with. At least being 20 marks a numerical end to my teen years….closure.
Who knows what is in store for me within the next decade?
It’s just a damn shame things didn’t work out with Nina. I’m real gutted about it and its hard reverting back to having no-one on the horizon again.
posted by A.Lee at 10:10 AM
1 Comments:
Things are not over with Nina.
It's obvious, from what you've said, that she has feelings for you. It's a natural reaction for her to distance herself from you at this point - whilst she sorts out her own life.
Let her get rid of the baggage (i.e...her b/f) and then you can worry about your part.
Until then, give her some room.
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