A lesson in possession

That’s what I like. Our manager and deputy are easy going and always say hello and have a friendly chat. I appreciate that.
Not only are these two in a position, in a business sense, of authority, but it is not in their job requirement to do anything like that. People will put it down to man management etc and while that is true, I get the feeling with those two this the real them.
But how do you know that Alex?
Well, I knew one of them when I first joined and she was just as sorted then.
Other people are dickheads however. I always find this in any walk of my life.
The people who won’t acknowledge you’re presence in whatever circumstance. There are too many people I know who just look straight through me and if I don’t throw in the first “hello.” We’d never talk again.
I mean what the fuck is that? I wouldn’t mind if we’d had some kind of fallout…but no, nothing like that. I’m not saying everyone has to be falsely polite. But it’s just about respect.
And I don’t have the kind of presence that demands respect. Unfortunately. People could be more considerate though.
It pisses me off because I go into these downward spirals of thinking. I really doubt myself as a capable human being. I doubt myself as a human being who can face life.
And I don’t wanna doubt myself but sometimes, man, it just feels like the world could care less about what I am.
I see how others fawn all over each other and feel like shit.
I feel a bit sad and down that things could be so much better with people if they would just show a little acknowledgement.
Is it that hard to let onto someone?
Moving on.
Melissa had this to say about Nina’s boyfriend “You shouldn’t have offered to pay for him because he just leeches of Nina….” blah blah blah. True, he does. But why shouldn’t he? She’s always going to be with him? It seems there are no limits to what this guy can do. Not only has he actually cheated on her, but he doesn’t listen to her and he takes all of her money.
He does all that and he still has her. I’m not rich or anywhere near but I have a nice little amount that I’ve built up. This means that I don’t have to scam off people. So my wallet had notes falling out of it…yet I have no-one.
That’s fine because money shouldn’t be the only factor in equating to a successful relationship. But if roles had been reversed, would either of those paid for me to go out that night? I’d like to say yes…but in reality there is not a hope in hell.
And I’ve seen how stingy people can be with money, to the point of greed.
Uggggghhhhhhhh. People eh? What can you do with them?
It’s just bitten me today. I just need to listen to some awesome music now and drift away, hopefully I will awaken and all be at peace again.