Lately
I’ve been playing football manager all day.
Can’t win a fucking match.
That shit is infuriating.
Nina came over today. Acting asif all was OK. She actually had the cheek to be sarcastic with me.
Ugh.
I was talking to this new girl at work a couple days back. Rachel she’s called.
I’m tempted to ask her out.
I just don’t feel any kind of bond with Nina right at this minute. So early into our relationship and I’m already looking to the horizon.
We talked about a few things. Nina said she was “concerned” about my lack of friends and “disturbed” by my lack of a career.
As soon as she said those things….I just wasn’t interested anymore.
I don’t feel like we are a team. I feel like I’m England and she’s Argentina. A quote comes to mind:
“This is supposed to be love, not war.”
She said that she doesn’t want to spend time over at my house. She says I have to learn how to drive fast so I can be over at her place. She says that I’m being lazy looking into a holiday next year.
It was not supposed to be like this after a couple of weeks. That night seems to have ruined everything.
I don’t know who this girl is, but I want my Nina back.
The girl who could laugh and act silly or goofy. The girl who would want me to cuddle her all night. The girl who supported me. The girl who believed in us.
I think because we’d nearly been together for a few months it feels like our relationship has been a lot longer than it actually has been.
Maybe this Dennis guy is introduced to all her boyfriends and he determines if they are suitable or not. Why he would have so much power I don’t know.
In the end I simply told Nina that I am who I am and she needs to make a few decisions over this weekend. I told her that I’m off into town with some of MY buddies tomorrow and she is free to join us.
If she doesn’t come out tomorrow…the relationship is over.
And I’m asking Rachel out.
Can’t win a fucking match.
That shit is infuriating.
Nina came over today. Acting asif all was OK. She actually had the cheek to be sarcastic with me.
Ugh.
I was talking to this new girl at work a couple days back. Rachel she’s called.
I’m tempted to ask her out.
I just don’t feel any kind of bond with Nina right at this minute. So early into our relationship and I’m already looking to the horizon.
We talked about a few things. Nina said she was “concerned” about my lack of friends and “disturbed” by my lack of a career.
As soon as she said those things….I just wasn’t interested anymore.
I don’t feel like we are a team. I feel like I’m England and she’s Argentina. A quote comes to mind:
“This is supposed to be love, not war.”
She said that she doesn’t want to spend time over at my house. She says I have to learn how to drive fast so I can be over at her place. She says that I’m being lazy looking into a holiday next year.
It was not supposed to be like this after a couple of weeks. That night seems to have ruined everything.
I don’t know who this girl is, but I want my Nina back.
The girl who could laugh and act silly or goofy. The girl who would want me to cuddle her all night. The girl who supported me. The girl who believed in us.
I think because we’d nearly been together for a few months it feels like our relationship has been a lot longer than it actually has been.
Maybe this Dennis guy is introduced to all her boyfriends and he determines if they are suitable or not. Why he would have so much power I don’t know.
In the end I simply told Nina that I am who I am and she needs to make a few decisions over this weekend. I told her that I’m off into town with some of MY buddies tomorrow and she is free to join us.
If she doesn’t come out tomorrow…the relationship is over.
And I’m asking Rachel out.
posted by A.Lee at 4:06 PM
2 Comments:
ALEX!
Get a hold of yourself mate.
I'm guilty of panicking if a relationship is going bad at the beginning too...but come on...it's been about a week.
And, remember this. When you're 'taken', we all act different with women. It just happens...no-one knows why. We start to think we're invincible, and start seeing people that we COULD be with, and we see the only thing in the way is the person you're with right now.
Well, take my word for it, it won't happen. Give Nina more time. Imagine if she thought what you are thinking ...how devestated you'd be if she only gave you a WEEK to prove yourself as good relationship material.
Think boy...THINK!
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