You and me both

Ok…errrr…ok
That was my response to Melissa telling me Nina had gone to Sheffield. How could she get this organised so quickly?
I spent most of the day after I found out lamenting the fact that I’d blown it.
But how could she get a move to Sheffield so quickly? It niggled me.
I rang Melissa in the evening. She tried to cut me off but she could sense the need to know in my voice.
“Sheffield? What the hell?”
“She’d been planning it for a while.”
“Why?”
“She was pretty messed up about things after she left her last boyfriend.”
I asked Melissa if she knew about what had happened with me and Nina.
“Yea I knew.”
“What do you think?”
“What does it matter?”
And then Melissa hung up on me.
I had to find out how Nina truly felt. Was she really mad at me? Or was she just sick of her life?
If she was really mad at me…then I had to go to Sheffield.
I had a day off from work but I went in anyway. I went straight over to Melissa and said I had some things I needed to talk about. I’ll transcribe the following conversation we had:
Key: M=Melissa A=Me
A: I need to know some things please.
M: I don’t know that much about it.
A: Just tell me how she felt. Honestly. Did she have any feelings for me at all?
M: OK. She got to know you when she was having problems with her boyfriend and she thought there might be something there but then it never happened. After that she didn’t really know how she felt. I’m not saying anymore.
A: What would you do in my position?
M: Move on.
I couldn’t believe I was in the middle of a situation like this. It was like being part of some disaster romance movie. Melissa was clearly angry at me, it was understandable, in her eyes I had pushed her close friend over the edge to move away.
Move on eh?
It reached the afternoon and I had to make a decision. Should I go to Sheffield?
I didn’t know where to find her there though. I sent a text message to her with the glimmer of hope she might answer me. It said:
“Hey. Im cumin up to c u. What address r u at?”
I then got a call from Melissa. She was fuming. She sounded a bit pissed aswell. She said Nina was dropping out of her Uni course because of what had happened.
“That’s ridiculous. I’m not going to be the reason she quit Uni. Tell me where she’ll be in Sheffield.”
Then Melissa told me to “just fuck off.” and that “she was going to get me sacked.”
Sorry if none of this makes sense but I just feel so jumpy and constantly nervous at the minute.
I decided to go to Sheffield regardless.
I’d stay there night and noon until I found her.
Luckily my uncle and his son were playing football there and they gave me a lift. I didn’t disclose the details of why I was tripping to Sheffield but they knew something was cooking. Nina text me back saying:
“Don’t bother.”
I called her up and left a message:
“Look I am coming up and I don’t have a clue where to go but I’m staying until you meet up with me. I know things between us might be too far apart but I don’t want to be the reason you quit Uni.”
About 10 minutes later I got sent a text saying she would meet me in the town centre.
And so we met up.
Just a few nights before it had all been so different.
Key: N=Nina
A: Hey
N: Hiya
A: Melissa says that your quitting Uni.
N: I haven’t decided yet.
A: Well I just came to tell you…don’t. At least not because of me.
N: Don’t flatter yourself.
A: Ok. But why would you wanna quit?
N: Its been so stressful and things…a lot of things…haven’t been working out.
A: Right.
N: Yea.
A You might aswell finish your degree now, just a few months now.
N: Yea I know.
A Was coming up here to Sheffield anything at all to do with me?
N: Why would you ask that?
A: I wanna know.
N: It was partly to do with it. You turned out to be totally different to what I liked about you.
A: How?
N: You are so nice and I really thought you cared about me but you just totally ruined it in one night.
A: Yea I know.
N: Well.
A: I’d still like to be friends.
N: I’m staying up here Alex. Don’t call me again…please.
A: I can’t believe your doing this.
N: See you.
She then turned around and walked off. Leaving me in the middle of Sheffield.
I thought about chasing after her but I felt like I’d been cut off at that precise moment. I sat down on a bench, I couldn’t move.
I stayed there for a couple of hours and then came home.
I walked in and my mum said work needed to contact me urgently. I phoned in and they said I had to attend a disciplinary hearing the next day.
So I went in and 30 minutes later I was sacked.
Me and Adam (the guy who I hated)
Both sacked.
We had sent mocking e-mails to each other which contained foul language. Someone had brought it to managements notice and we paid the ultimate price.
Me and Adam walked out. I told him it was Melissa who had grassed us up. He was pissed, as was I.
We walked over the fields….found some rocks and started to scratch Melissas car up.
Is this what it had come to? Wrecking someone’s car with someone I disliked?
I threw the stone down and left immediately. I came home and lied down on my bed.
I burst into tears. I just couldn’t help it.
I was at my lowest when I got sent another text by Nina. It simply read.
“I miss you. I’m coming back.”