Say hello to fate

There was a moment at work tonight. A moment in which I saw my cousin, uncle and aunty all at once. These 3 of my blood relations are over 30, never been in a relationship and are living alone. They were never destined to find anyone and are resigned to the fact that their lives are just their own. They do or they will have sat up for hours questioning the justice of a world that has not allowed them to meet someone, they have not been giving that privilege. My biggest fear is that I will join their ranks, I’m not seeing any evidence to prove to the contrary. Time concerns me, people say “just have fun”…well that’s what they told my cousin, they told him it would just happen. But we live in a world where it doesn’t just have to happen and he has ended up with nobody. I wonder why fate shines upon some people, why is it that one person can find someone and another person will never find anyone?
In jobs, money etc, not everyone can have the same thing….that’s fine, I can accept that because at least it is in you’re hands. But surely everyone deserves to meet that special someone, my cousin deserves to, as do my uncle and aunty, surely they have the right to have met someone.
Yesterday as I left work for the second time Sally thanked me for the McDonald’s, in a glancing second as she faced me, everything slowed down and I’ve just been replaying this to myself over and over. Her tone of voice and the expression on her face seemed genuinely caring, in that passing moment I felt togetherness with her. But I go to work tonight and its all bullshit….
I said we could never get together, I said we wouldn’t get together and I said we will never get together, but I still wanted to believe that under different circumstances she would be interested, I needed to know that. But again tonight she proved her disinterest. Bugger I thought as I trailed home, rain drizzling and mud all over my boots, I looked back and saw her leaving with a couple of friends, if I died tomorrow….she wouldn’t think twice