Ah the fucking pain of it all

There’s an emptiness in me. Every few seconds I huff and I puff, so gutted at things now. Can’t believe my gran is really gone, barely anything remains from my perfect childhood. Its taken the wind right out of me. Everything seems more pointless, asif we are just filing time. I saw 2 types of people today…the first was in a relationship, the other wasn’t. The one in the relationship tried to make me feel positive, the single one just put a sympathetic arm round my shoulder. What is this life if you don’t have someone to share it with? Anything I achieve, who am I going to truly celebrate with…the wall? My grandad is alone now, he said he spent the best part of today staring at an empty chair. I just can’t see the point of this life if you are alone, if you don’t have a partner to share with. That’s why they are you’re partner, you’re there for each other, a shoulder to cry on and someone to open a bottle of wine with. My cousin has tried to fill the void with a DVD collection, the latest pc or a new album, the trouble is, none of these material things give a damn about you. Friends are great, they temporarily relieve that loneliness, but when you go home at night, there not going to bed with you (in most cases anyway)
So I stand by my….being single sucks, and it hurts and it makes me sad.