Episode 3
It’s not a good felling to go back in time.
Sam re-joined work today, he had left last September to go to Liverpool and now he was back. It was an odd feeling because suddenly it felt I’d been transferred back to last September.
I started to think about last September and it was quite an odd coincidence that Sonya started immediately after Sam and then left just before he re-joined.
Today was lousy. I felt like everything had been undone just because one person had left. My team didn’t seem as fun or as friendly anymore and the work seemed even less attractive. And what the hell is going on with Melissa and Nina I have no idea. It seems they have forgot how to be civilised towards me.
With Nina I’m in constant wonder at how someone can profess the feeling she did and then do a complete 180.
Everytime I just try to be Ok with her aswell.
She said she was going to split from her B/F last week and at first, those old feelings of wanting to get together came back but I immediately put that flame out because I realise it’s just all bullshit with her. There is not an ounce of sincerity in her body.
I missed Sonya a lot today. Her spirit, vibrancy and character is something I rarely come across in my life. I realise just how much I depended on seeing her face. I always wanted to make her laugh and when I actually did it was great.
I especially miss the old Sonya, the one I first got to know. She was very soft, very silly and very endearing. That job toughened her up.
She had only just moved from Ireland and she seemed unspoilt by trivial matters such as fashion and hairstyles. She was a free spirit. As time went on she became more materialistic and shallow. She always retained her original personality but you could see the roots of evil were creeping in.
Maybe that’s why she left in the end?
I can think of so many events that occurred that kept us from being close friends and that makes me even more sad about the whole thing. There was a potential for more but fate, for whatever reason, saw not to follow that path.
I will write much more about this, possibly another entry tonight.
Sam re-joined work today, he had left last September to go to Liverpool and now he was back. It was an odd feeling because suddenly it felt I’d been transferred back to last September.
I started to think about last September and it was quite an odd coincidence that Sonya started immediately after Sam and then left just before he re-joined.
Today was lousy. I felt like everything had been undone just because one person had left. My team didn’t seem as fun or as friendly anymore and the work seemed even less attractive. And what the hell is going on with Melissa and Nina I have no idea. It seems they have forgot how to be civilised towards me.
With Nina I’m in constant wonder at how someone can profess the feeling she did and then do a complete 180.
Everytime I just try to be Ok with her aswell.
She said she was going to split from her B/F last week and at first, those old feelings of wanting to get together came back but I immediately put that flame out because I realise it’s just all bullshit with her. There is not an ounce of sincerity in her body.
I missed Sonya a lot today. Her spirit, vibrancy and character is something I rarely come across in my life. I realise just how much I depended on seeing her face. I always wanted to make her laugh and when I actually did it was great.
I especially miss the old Sonya, the one I first got to know. She was very soft, very silly and very endearing. That job toughened her up.
She had only just moved from Ireland and she seemed unspoilt by trivial matters such as fashion and hairstyles. She was a free spirit. As time went on she became more materialistic and shallow. She always retained her original personality but you could see the roots of evil were creeping in.
Maybe that’s why she left in the end?
I can think of so many events that occurred that kept us from being close friends and that makes me even more sad about the whole thing. There was a potential for more but fate, for whatever reason, saw not to follow that path.
I will write much more about this, possibly another entry tonight.
posted by A.Lee at 11:01 AM
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Sometimes Alex we just can't explain things that happen between two peeple.
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