Return of the Christian

Here’s me wanting a perfect world.
I didn’t imagine life at 20 to be anything like this. I didn’t really think about it though. I’m delighted that this year I have found the abundant life centre. The preaching’s that I hear are very reassuring and usually calm me down in all this madness.
I’m having one of those days where I feel haunted by the past and fearful of the future. Time could stand still for me until I figure this stuff out…but it won’t.
There are a lot of issues that are yet to unravel. What do I do from September? How will things work out with the people around me?
I need more companionship but I realise I need to relax. All this time I complained about not having any close friends anymore, yet every night this week Louis has been round and the amount of time I’ve spent chatting with Mark about life in general has been immense.
I just think Sonya’s leaving has screwed me up a bit.
Bit by bit I will claw my way back. I also have to set the record straight with Melissa and Nina.
Melissa’s birthday is coming up and she hasn’t asked me to go yet.
The ball is in her court and she can determine what kind of shot she wants to play.