Who do you think you are?

I’d been mulling over my egotistical ultimatum and I started to suspect an “over-reaction”.
I hadn’t given Nina much chance to say anything so before going out I called her. She was quite upset over the phone.
It was the anniversary of her mums death and her flat mates had bailed on her to go out. I immediately cancelled my plans for the night and went over to hers.
We talked and talked for ages and by the end I felt like a bit of a fool.
I kept finding out bits of information that made me feel sooooooo guilty for how I’d just run off. I’d let my mind run so far with this thing.
That Dennis bloke was someone she’d known for years, he’d known her mum.
“We just got wrapped up in talking about the past.”
I felt a bit sick. I was acting like Ben.
I had become Ben.
Needy and wanting to stick my nose into everything.
I think if anyone had shifted character it was me.
The bottom line is….I had a freak out. It’s over with now and luckily I still have a girlfriend.
The only good thing about my freak out was this.
I cared enough about her to freak out. It would hurt too much for her to just stop liking me and that freaked me out.
I only ever had one relationship before Nina. We had no emotional connection at all.
Whereas me and Nina just seem to fit. We’d been through a lot before we even got together but it was totally worth it because now we have all this good stuff.
So for Gods sake don’t blow it by doing something stupid Alex.