The past, the past, oh my god it's the past!
I haven’t thought about Sally this week. She hasn’t been in at work so maybe that has something to do with it. But to tell you the truth I think I reached the end of my obsession. It got to a point where I was being completely unrealistic about her. I mentioned before that the image I made of her was different from the real deal, I just needed something to cling on to.
Dane has started hanging around our area again. We used to be friends but I always felt he was plotting my downfall. I didn’t say anything to him and he didn’t say anything to me, I was relieved…I don’t want him back in my life, I don’t want that pressure. It’s like the situation with Ben, why try and connect to the past all the time? Why try to re-create what has already gone? I’m not interested in doing that, there are too many bad memories and the bottom line is, the future is so much brighter. The nastiness from my second school is slowly drifting away from me, I’m finally exorcising all that yukiness. I still have a lot to learn and a lot of barriers to knock over, but I feel as though I’m starting to revolt at last.
Some of the people at work are really awesome. Last night was great, had a laugh all the way through. I understand Michael Jackson when he says he gets on with people either side of his age group, I am definitely like that. All my friends at work are in their 20’s, 30’s or even 40’s. Not everyone at work is great, but there are many a gem of people down there. Some of them have such a balanced look at life, whether its maturity that has granted this I’m not sure but they seem to be able to accept any type of person. There are others of course, like Sam and Sally who like a strict type of character I.E dull. You can’t say wacky things to them or they think you’re “not cool”, and quite frankly I NEED to say wacky things.
I’m currently watching bad lads…aren’t they sensitive?
I consider myself a lonely person, Sally said I was a loner last week. She’s right I am, but I’m dealing with it….hopefully it won’t be forever.
“Is you’re heart filled with pain? Shall I come back again? Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight…”
Dane has started hanging around our area again. We used to be friends but I always felt he was plotting my downfall. I didn’t say anything to him and he didn’t say anything to me, I was relieved…I don’t want him back in my life, I don’t want that pressure. It’s like the situation with Ben, why try and connect to the past all the time? Why try to re-create what has already gone? I’m not interested in doing that, there are too many bad memories and the bottom line is, the future is so much brighter. The nastiness from my second school is slowly drifting away from me, I’m finally exorcising all that yukiness. I still have a lot to learn and a lot of barriers to knock over, but I feel as though I’m starting to revolt at last.
Some of the people at work are really awesome. Last night was great, had a laugh all the way through. I understand Michael Jackson when he says he gets on with people either side of his age group, I am definitely like that. All my friends at work are in their 20’s, 30’s or even 40’s. Not everyone at work is great, but there are many a gem of people down there. Some of them have such a balanced look at life, whether its maturity that has granted this I’m not sure but they seem to be able to accept any type of person. There are others of course, like Sam and Sally who like a strict type of character I.E dull. You can’t say wacky things to them or they think you’re “not cool”, and quite frankly I NEED to say wacky things.
I’m currently watching bad lads…aren’t they sensitive?
I consider myself a lonely person, Sally said I was a loner last week. She’s right I am, but I’m dealing with it….hopefully it won’t be forever.
“Is you’re heart filled with pain? Shall I come back again? Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight…”
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