3:16

Watching the ashes being scattered on the grave at the cemetery was sad but also fitting. Everyone who needed to be there was there. Its hard to explain how I feel now, a sadness and emptiness but with slight hope and cautious optimism.
Optimism? Yes, cautious optimism….a feeling of an impending change. I’ve accepted that for the next year I’ll be doing the English course, and if I make sure I try my best at that then at least it’s a foot in the right direction as far as a career is concerned. As far as getting rid of the problem of being single, I guess that’s really up to fate. I cannot influence a chance meeting with someone that flourishes into a relationship, that’s up to whatever created the universe. But I can say that I am prepared and ready for a relationship unlike in the past. I’d be ready for letting someone be a big part of my life.
….and that’s the bottom line because stone cold said so apparently!