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Yea I told lies for a while. I had to save face.
My 3 closest buddies all hated each other. Obviously something had to give. Why couldn’t we have been like 4 amigos? That was harsh. I only keep in contact with one of them now. When I look at this, I realise just what a bugger that is. It made things difficult no doubt. So I lied. I lied to people at college and I lied to people at work.
“What you doing this weekend?”
“I’m going out with buddies”
But in truth, there were no buddies. Instead of all 3 of us going out, I had to negotiate the situation with all 3 of them. So why is Louis the only one left I’ve kept in contact with? Because he is my perfect buddy in a way….we can just hang out, have a laugh and have a drink. With Aaron it was similar for years until we just grew apart. With Ben it was too deep, we went though hell together and in the end it tore us apart.
It’s easy on the internet to admit…I have few friends, it’s easy because anyone reading this doesn’t know me personally. At work though, I see people checking messages and taking calls on their mobile phones. They all seem highly popular. Whereas I don’t have too many friends anymore. I could admit this to them and become belittled for the rest of my student and working life but I’d rather just keep my head above water for now.
Nina kind of knows though. She always asks what I’m up to. She’s at Uni so she has a cracking social life. She’s on to me though…lol
I’m going out with her and the extroverts next week…..again.
In a few days, I’ll be 20 (I expect presents from you all!) and thus marks the end of my teenage years. Have I enjoyed my teen years? The answer is no. 5 years of hell somewhere in between really crushed me……
BUT that was then, although sometimes I feel bad about what I went though. I also remember that the experience taught me sooooo much. It taught me about other people.
Me and Aaron were pretty horrible to these kids who used to hang round our area. We were bully’s. At that time I was coasting through life, but then came second school and I tasted my own shit. Suddenly I was on the receiving end. It made me realise that it’s important to treat everyone, when I first meet them, the same. Forget what everyone else says….just act how I feel.
I must shut-up now & I apologise for this entry making no sense.
I want to talk about diet for a moment. I’m considering eating 6 small meals throughout the day to increase my weight.
I said just a moment.
My 3 closest buddies all hated each other. Obviously something had to give. Why couldn’t we have been like 4 amigos? That was harsh. I only keep in contact with one of them now. When I look at this, I realise just what a bugger that is. It made things difficult no doubt. So I lied. I lied to people at college and I lied to people at work.
“What you doing this weekend?”
“I’m going out with buddies”
But in truth, there were no buddies. Instead of all 3 of us going out, I had to negotiate the situation with all 3 of them. So why is Louis the only one left I’ve kept in contact with? Because he is my perfect buddy in a way….we can just hang out, have a laugh and have a drink. With Aaron it was similar for years until we just grew apart. With Ben it was too deep, we went though hell together and in the end it tore us apart.
It’s easy on the internet to admit…I have few friends, it’s easy because anyone reading this doesn’t know me personally. At work though, I see people checking messages and taking calls on their mobile phones. They all seem highly popular. Whereas I don’t have too many friends anymore. I could admit this to them and become belittled for the rest of my student and working life but I’d rather just keep my head above water for now.
Nina kind of knows though. She always asks what I’m up to. She’s at Uni so she has a cracking social life. She’s on to me though…lol
I’m going out with her and the extroverts next week…..again.
In a few days, I’ll be 20 (I expect presents from you all!) and thus marks the end of my teenage years. Have I enjoyed my teen years? The answer is no. 5 years of hell somewhere in between really crushed me……
BUT that was then, although sometimes I feel bad about what I went though. I also remember that the experience taught me sooooo much. It taught me about other people.
Me and Aaron were pretty horrible to these kids who used to hang round our area. We were bully’s. At that time I was coasting through life, but then came second school and I tasted my own shit. Suddenly I was on the receiving end. It made me realise that it’s important to treat everyone, when I first meet them, the same. Forget what everyone else says….just act how I feel.
I must shut-up now & I apologise for this entry making no sense.
I want to talk about diet for a moment. I’m considering eating 6 small meals throughout the day to increase my weight.
I said just a moment.
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