Indoors

I’ve felt a different kind of low this week. I’ve been hurt you see….wounded. I went out and out and out and I thought I’d met a girl that might actually be interested in me. No matter how much I downplayed it, no matter how much water I threw on the fire I still felt it. Then you get told…
“I was only joking”
Yea I kinda knew. I shouldn’t have been so blind. It’s just the fact that I have to face work again next week and no doubt everyone will know. Why didn’t I take heed of my post a couple Monday’s back? If only I would have read and followed through, then I wouldn’t be feeling like this. I felt bad before because I’d never really tried to mix with the extroverts from work, I’d never tried to get to know Nina outside work. So I couldn’t complain if there was no friendship between us. But now I have and it’s even worse. I got asked along to be their figure of fun. She asked me to go, so she could pump her ego up and get a laugh at the same time.
I’m going to have a nap because I’m bored.