Poppin’ tyres

People, people, people.
Confused and slightly distressed. That’s how I view people. One day they’re friendly and sorted. The next day they are quite simply…not.
I appreciate the attention from Nina. The dynamics of our relationship have changed somewhat over the course of 3 weeks. We nearly hooked up that one night but my conscience got the better of me. God what a wuss. If I had stepped it up more she would have gone for it but then I’d be a hypocrite.
“I’d never go with a girl who had a boyfriend”
And there it was. Staring me point blank in my face. Do I go with this girl who I’m attracted to and forget about what happens after, let her deal with it. Or do I stand by my word. I picked the second because, I guess, there never was a choice.
A lot of the people I know would have picked the first option and a small minority would have chosen the second. The people who would have picked the second are generally people I really respect. That’s not down to purely what their decision would be in that situation. But simply because I get on well with them and we have similar characters.
So anyways, I missed out. And now I’m in that acquaintances category. She invited me to go shopping with Mary, another girl at work.
Yup…just an acquaintance….no more.
I think she pity’s me. Is there anything worse than being pitied?
What a pity eh?
I shouldn’t let other people’s views and opinions affect me. Just sometimes they dominate my consciousness.
“It’s a crazy world we live in…and I’m proud to be a part of it”