Waiting for a pass

I read an interesting blog about motivation to write. Just 1-2 years ago up until last feb I would write scripts, poems, short stories….but now I don’t do any of that. I was always interested in situations of characters. There always had to be some kind of wacky or intriguing situation for me to write a story about. When I consider writing a story or script these days the situation is less explosive and is entirely character driven.
I attempted to write a love story a year or so ago but realised that when it came to dialogue I just couldn’t think of the words. After all I’ve never been in love so how could I relate?
My lack of writing activity and my lax attitude towards college is a direct result of years of personal neglect.
For years I never went out and had very little contact with people.
Now all I think about is my relationships with other people. Nothing else seems to matter. After this weekend however, I need to catch up with my English work as the exams are in 3 weeks. I need to revise fairly hard and give myself the chance of a good grade.
Why am I waiting ‘till after this weekend? Well there’s a certain reason. A situation I need clarification on….by Saturday I should have all the answers….and on Sunday I’ll crack on.
I have big hopes for this summer, I believe I will have an amazing experience and I’ll be 100% motivated for college again next year. All I need is for a couple of things to drop into place and I’ll be laughing.
I’m worried about exams now. Worrying I haven’t done enough work.