Speed of thought
This is going to be the final entry regarding the situation with Nina. I feel it is important to try and move past what’s happened with her.
2 main reasons are the fact that at work my performance levels have dropped and I have my main exams in a month.
It is simply not healthy to have one person infiltrate your mind to the extent she has.
It has been an interesting, if nothing else, past 6 weeks. Everytime I think I’m in control of the situation….it turns on its head. Like at first I thought she really disliked me since Christmas but then we had a real good time on a night out. Then I thought she’d played me for a fool by drinking stupid amounts of shots. Then she acts real sweet and I think we can be friends. Then we go out again and for 90% of the day it is boring as hell. Then for the remaining 10% of the day it gets very interesting and we both reveal our attraction. Then she’s extremely pally back at work. Then we kiss and kiss and kiss on a night out. Then she distances herself. Now there’s no real contact at all. We officially stopped sending e-mails today. It was the first time when we both working we didn’t note each other.
I’m left with a mix of emotions. Relief that for the first time in a long, long while I actually had at least something with a girl. Disappointed that it looks over. After that Sunday I though we were gonna be together…I really did.
I admit that yesterday gutted me like a fish. The coldness of her intent has really shaken me into writing this. I feel in blogging it…I’m ridding myself of it. I can’t wait for my English exams to be out of the way. Just 1 more month then I’m free for the a few months.
I’m going out in an hour to watch jesus music for 2 hours.
I thought there was going to be a drinking session today but apparently not.
2 main reasons are the fact that at work my performance levels have dropped and I have my main exams in a month.
It is simply not healthy to have one person infiltrate your mind to the extent she has.
It has been an interesting, if nothing else, past 6 weeks. Everytime I think I’m in control of the situation….it turns on its head. Like at first I thought she really disliked me since Christmas but then we had a real good time on a night out. Then I thought she’d played me for a fool by drinking stupid amounts of shots. Then she acts real sweet and I think we can be friends. Then we go out again and for 90% of the day it is boring as hell. Then for the remaining 10% of the day it gets very interesting and we both reveal our attraction. Then she’s extremely pally back at work. Then we kiss and kiss and kiss on a night out. Then she distances herself. Now there’s no real contact at all. We officially stopped sending e-mails today. It was the first time when we both working we didn’t note each other.
I’m left with a mix of emotions. Relief that for the first time in a long, long while I actually had at least something with a girl. Disappointed that it looks over. After that Sunday I though we were gonna be together…I really did.
I admit that yesterday gutted me like a fish. The coldness of her intent has really shaken me into writing this. I feel in blogging it…I’m ridding myself of it. I can’t wait for my English exams to be out of the way. Just 1 more month then I’m free for the a few months.
I’m going out in an hour to watch jesus music for 2 hours.
I thought there was going to be a drinking session today but apparently not.
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