Pearl
I had a plan this weekend, to just get through to Sunday afternoon and then watch the big match in complete comfort. It’s a shame wanting to rush through life but I can guarantee nothing in the next year will change - unless a horrible accident occurs - and I lose someone close. I’ve created certain goals in my mind…mostly to do with the English course, or at least trying to do the best I can with it. Personal relationships are odd at the minute, I seem to be getting on well with the male population. A couple of new starters were in this week and we have been having a laugh everyday, in particular about the supervisor who has terrible breath. It’s shallow I know, but honestly if you have one conversation with her you better start searching the floor for your eyebrows.
Things with Sally were dreadful at the start of this week. I noticed my behaviour had change towards her and quite frankly didn’t like it. I was starting to snipe and become annoying. The e-mails we sent each other were becoming none-existent and reading over ones I sent out, they are unbearable. I took control yesterday though and I asked myself why I was acting this way towards her. The truth is, without any sugar coating, I was just hurt she didn’t like me in that way. I have felt like this for a while, that’s why our relationship had soured somewhat, I was just hurt and feeling self pity and all of this was coming out in our conversations.
So I had to shift my attitude and after I admitted how I felt to myself…..rational thinking suddenly entered the frame. Its not her fault she isn’t attracted to me, that’s just the way its got to be…so stop being a petulant child. So yesterday and today we got on really well, and yea I still feel down that she doesn’t feel that way for me, but at the same time I’ve learnt to deal with it and not let it ruin what we do have.
A new girl started on our team. I haven’t talked to her yet but I’ll be thinking about how cool it would be if we hit it off. Then I’ll actually talk to her and all hopes will be dashed lol
Things with Sally were dreadful at the start of this week. I noticed my behaviour had change towards her and quite frankly didn’t like it. I was starting to snipe and become annoying. The e-mails we sent each other were becoming none-existent and reading over ones I sent out, they are unbearable. I took control yesterday though and I asked myself why I was acting this way towards her. The truth is, without any sugar coating, I was just hurt she didn’t like me in that way. I have felt like this for a while, that’s why our relationship had soured somewhat, I was just hurt and feeling self pity and all of this was coming out in our conversations.
So I had to shift my attitude and after I admitted how I felt to myself…..rational thinking suddenly entered the frame. Its not her fault she isn’t attracted to me, that’s just the way its got to be…so stop being a petulant child. So yesterday and today we got on really well, and yea I still feel down that she doesn’t feel that way for me, but at the same time I’ve learnt to deal with it and not let it ruin what we do have.
A new girl started on our team. I haven’t talked to her yet but I’ll be thinking about how cool it would be if we hit it off. Then I’ll actually talk to her and all hopes will be dashed lol
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