International crash

What an odd place I’m in at the moment.
I’m living life without any thoughts beyond the current week. Some would view that as a good thing and others wouldn’t, it just depends what type of person you are.
I don’t feel any particular discomfort or dissatisfaction at the moment…yet it still feels like something is missing.
Maybe we are meant to feel like that? Keep the hunt going.
But then I think about what’s missing and nothing comes to mind.
I’m fine with my job, I’m studying for what I want, I’ve got a social life, I’m in the process of getting a 2 month tour booked for next year.
Yet all of it is kind of impassioned. I don’t feel any great desire or ambition.
Life is weird at the moment. I’m weird.
I got absolutely hammered last night and I had a good laugh etc etc but I woke up today feeling like there was something better that I could have done. Somewhere else I could have been. Someone else I could have been with.
It’s fucked up.