Shallow Hal

I would never be able to go out with/have one night stand with someone I was not attracted to. I know people who will go with anything….that aint me.
Why am I saying this?
Well ya see, life wants to insult me further.
Nina and I have started talking again and she seemed to have cut her snappy attitude out. Which was good news because she was a good friend when she wasn’t acting like a shit.
Then yesterday night on the way to football Sam said that there was a big conversation involving himself, Nina, a team manager and a couple of other random people. They were talking about Liam and Amy being a couple and Sam (who doesn’t know Nina that well) blurted out “Forget them two…what about Alex and Nina!”.
The team manager and the randoms laughed while Nina was reportedly uncomfortable. She has since made every effort to prove there is nothing between us but she took a step further tonight when she texted me saying “I’ve been talking to someone at work who really, really fancies you. But I promised not to tell.”
What are we 8 years old? Just fucking tell me.
Although…do I really want to know? ‘cos no doubt it will be someone I’m not attracted to and it will be awkward and embarrassing.
This situation is rare for me. Someone who is actually attracted to me. I’ve been wishing to meet someone for so long that I know it will be the ultimate insult when this person is to be revealed.
I’m being cynical. Deep down I know it’s well founded.
I’ll write a blog tomorrow explaining who it is when I find out.
It will be a very depressive entry because life will have insulted me. Trying to humiliate me and break me.
..why can’t it be someone…I like? Is that such a foreign concept?
I bet its Vanessa….ugh.