A new hope
I feel guilty/silly/sappy when I write blog entries that are all about how I’m feeling. But fuck it…it’s a blog afterall.
Those lovely moments when you’ve been getting to know someone and suddenly you get to the point where you feel comfortable saying almost anything to them, or at least you don’t reserve comment.
It has been a tense couple of weeks with Nina. We’re not really speaking and she’s really coming across as a bitch and a bit of a shitty person. Me and Chris were walking out and we were right behind her as she walked through the door. The doors at work require you to swipe your pass at the side to open, so normally where you’ve gone to the effort of opening the door and people are walking behind you, you would hold the door open so they don’t have to go to through the effort of the swiping. This is not something sensational…you do it for people you don’t even know in every walk of life. So she opens the door, turns around, looks at us, turns back around and carries on walking. So Chris had to get out his card to swipe (heh let him do it).
I can’t begin to explain why she is acting this way. I thought for at least 3 months that us two were going to get together because we were getting on well etc and things were bad with her B/F. As time passed and things improved with her boyfriend I had to grudgingly accept this. When I met him I thought he was a top bloke and that’s why I wanted him to come out with us all 2 weeks ago. That’s why I offered to pay for him.
In moments of mental weakness I wished that we had got together but every time I saw the two of them getting on I knew it wasn’t going to happen.
I don’t want to give the idea that I’m thinking about all this bollocks all the time…I’m not. When it comes to me thinking about writing an entry…I just try to write from the heart and right what I really feel about situations in my life. After I’ve clicked published…I get on with the rest of my life.
Nina finishes work next week and has the whole of August booked off. I’m starting to think that this maybe a good thing. Out of sight…out of mind.
I’ve been getting on really well with Nina’s best mate, Melissa. She has a wacky sense of humour and we just laugh all the time.
She’s leaving soon though. Damnit…cos we’ve reached that really cool part in getting to know someone.
Those lovely moments when you’ve been getting to know someone and suddenly you get to the point where you feel comfortable saying almost anything to them, or at least you don’t reserve comment.
It has been a tense couple of weeks with Nina. We’re not really speaking and she’s really coming across as a bitch and a bit of a shitty person. Me and Chris were walking out and we were right behind her as she walked through the door. The doors at work require you to swipe your pass at the side to open, so normally where you’ve gone to the effort of opening the door and people are walking behind you, you would hold the door open so they don’t have to go to through the effort of the swiping. This is not something sensational…you do it for people you don’t even know in every walk of life. So she opens the door, turns around, looks at us, turns back around and carries on walking. So Chris had to get out his card to swipe (heh let him do it).
I can’t begin to explain why she is acting this way. I thought for at least 3 months that us two were going to get together because we were getting on well etc and things were bad with her B/F. As time passed and things improved with her boyfriend I had to grudgingly accept this. When I met him I thought he was a top bloke and that’s why I wanted him to come out with us all 2 weeks ago. That’s why I offered to pay for him.
In moments of mental weakness I wished that we had got together but every time I saw the two of them getting on I knew it wasn’t going to happen.
I don’t want to give the idea that I’m thinking about all this bollocks all the time…I’m not. When it comes to me thinking about writing an entry…I just try to write from the heart and right what I really feel about situations in my life. After I’ve clicked published…I get on with the rest of my life.
Nina finishes work next week and has the whole of August booked off. I’m starting to think that this maybe a good thing. Out of sight…out of mind.
I’ve been getting on really well with Nina’s best mate, Melissa. She has a wacky sense of humour and we just laugh all the time.
She’s leaving soon though. Damnit…cos we’ve reached that really cool part in getting to know someone.
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