Sorry Sam

It’s strange what ways life directs you sometimes.
This last time last year I was fairly content. I never went out and my relationships with people were not very good. It’s not that people disliked me, it’s just they didn’t think anything of me.
I was writing quite a bit though. I was pretty satisfied. I only started doing this blog when I started to feel it wasn’t enough.
Today I got some feedback on my writing, the first for 14 months. It was nice, I suddenly remembered that I could actually still write.
The day kicked on and I found out Sam had left work again.
I asked Sally why he hadn’t said anything.
“He didn’t want work to find out he’s not coming back.”
So why didn’t he tell me?
“He thinks you’d changed since he came back.”
I questioned her further about this but she didn’t want to go into full depth.
People were funny to me all day.
And I just thought that I really am supposed to be a loner. We can’t fake what we aren’t forever.
I am a loner and I have to deal with it. No big deal….that’s just the way it is.