I walk the line
Since the split from Nina I’ve lost most, if not, all my social contacts.
Which proves how utterly fickle these “contacts” were. I haven’t had a night out for weeks and weeks.
My routine at the moment is basically go to work, go to college, play computer games, eat 3 meals a day and wait for Anna to call to say it is OK for us to meet.
My life has gone back to feeling like a black hole. Except this time there is Anna stood in the middle.
She is the only thing that makes it worth getting up in the morning for. I look forward to even just being able to talk to her on the phone for 2 seconds ‘cos she can’t get away from her husband.
And this husband is a joke. He is the typical oafish baboon that just totally ignores his wife all night except when he wants food or something done for him.
All around me people are achieving things constantly and I’m constantly having to spew out praise to these lunatics.
I’ve developed a gut hate for lots of the people I run across. Most of them are always trying to fit into a certain bracket of people at the expense of humanity.
This is no way to live. I shouldn’t exist with these beliefs carrying themselves around in me but I CAN’T HELP IT.
I saw a mate from my old school in the street.
He wasn’t the typical kind of mate.
We got on so well that he once said on a bus home to me that “I was his best mate”. Getting this guy to say anything remotely sentimental or emotional was beyond belief so as you can understand we were close.
We had connections that blew away social boundaries created by our peers.
Then I saw him walking down the street, this guy I hadn’t seen for 5 years.
And he turned his back on me literally. We briefly caught eye contact with each other and he turned his back so when I walked past I wouldn’t say anything.
Which proves how utterly fickle these “contacts” were. I haven’t had a night out for weeks and weeks.
My routine at the moment is basically go to work, go to college, play computer games, eat 3 meals a day and wait for Anna to call to say it is OK for us to meet.
My life has gone back to feeling like a black hole. Except this time there is Anna stood in the middle.
She is the only thing that makes it worth getting up in the morning for. I look forward to even just being able to talk to her on the phone for 2 seconds ‘cos she can’t get away from her husband.
And this husband is a joke. He is the typical oafish baboon that just totally ignores his wife all night except when he wants food or something done for him.
All around me people are achieving things constantly and I’m constantly having to spew out praise to these lunatics.
I’ve developed a gut hate for lots of the people I run across. Most of them are always trying to fit into a certain bracket of people at the expense of humanity.
This is no way to live. I shouldn’t exist with these beliefs carrying themselves around in me but I CAN’T HELP IT.
I saw a mate from my old school in the street.
He wasn’t the typical kind of mate.
We got on so well that he once said on a bus home to me that “I was his best mate”. Getting this guy to say anything remotely sentimental or emotional was beyond belief so as you can understand we were close.
We had connections that blew away social boundaries created by our peers.
Then I saw him walking down the street, this guy I hadn’t seen for 5 years.
And he turned his back on me literally. We briefly caught eye contact with each other and he turned his back so when I walked past I wouldn’t say anything.
posted by A.Lee at 10:26 AM
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